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Maybe it is because I got tested for HIV

before I ever had my first real kiss

And when the nurse asked me why I didn't use protection

I said, "Because, I'm stupid"

And when she asked about the bruises

I lied.

My test results came back negative

But, I still had H-I-M running through my veins

the memories are like a retrovirus,

dormant for months

Or years

Until they appear again

Each time, getting worse

Slowly beating my body and my mind

Hot viral memories

Spewing out of my choking heart

Until my blood is more his

than mine

This virus doesn't retrograde,

It retrospects.

#sexualassault